I remember being 14 years old and thinking about how much time I had…to do what with – I wasn’t sure – but time was on my side.
Today is different of course. There is more runway behind me than in front of me and things that were terribly important in my rear view, aren’t getting my attention any more.
I still can’t shake that part of me that feels “I have time”. It wraps around me like a blanket and comforts me though not as deeply as when I was a teenager.
I don’t always waste time but I am guilty of wasting tons of time in search of some indication that I have arrived, doing what I am meant to be doing.
I imagine that I will feel light and calm and confident and in control always knowing the right next step to take. I have been chasing this particular feeling goal for a very long time. I am yet to arrive. The pursuit seems pointless but I continue doing, searching, thinking I’m there, realizing I’m really here, getting depressed and wondering – as I face the runway in front of me – whether there is such a place, as the one I’m chasing?
The truth is that what I am looking for, I’ve already found but the world refuses to allow me to see the paradoxical truth. It is the same for me and you. Anyone who is selling intellect runs into this catch-22 scenario:
How could you possibly be good at X if you can’t even solve that problem for yourself? You know what you are? An impostor!
We who have been gifted with sharing our expertise run into this over and over again, and we tell ourselves that perhaps where we are, isn’t where we are meant to be. Or we need to solve the problem first in our own lives BEFORE we can qualify to sell our solutions!
Today in the interest of time I’m here to tell you – quit looking and searching.
You have already found your music, your special sauce, your reengineered supercalifragilistic system…
I’m here to tell you that your wound is your gift. The thing you’re trying to hide about you, is your gift. The darkness is the gift.
A gift is meant to be given.
Your purpose is to share your gift. Don’t spend time agonizing that you are unable to direct your own life superbly. You were meant to direct the lives of others. In your own life, you may not be able to decide whether to go right or left but you can help Susan find her way. Sure you can. You can do it in your sleep couldn’t you?
If you’re depressed or anxious, it’s not because you haven’t found your purpose, it’s because you have not acted on it. Anxiety comes with living BELOW your potential. You can only feel better when you serve in the context of that very thing you keep looking at and scorning because it’s all pervasive in your life.
Don’t be fooled by the noise that would have you believe otherwise.
Life is short. It can end any day. Don’t die with your music in you. Motivate from within, and make the most of your time left.
There is nothing more disorienting and depressing than to see the years pass by without a sense of direction, grasping to reach goals that keep changing and squandering your youthful energies.ROBERT GREENE